For the Ones Who Are Holding a Lot Right Now

A moment of return for those who lead quietly, carry deeply, and know they’re at a threshold.

If you’re reading this, I trust you’re someone who knows how to hold a lot.
Not because you wanted to, but because, for some reason, life asked you to.
And something in you said yes, with a deeper knowing that you are big enough to hold it all.

You’ve been the one others turn to.
You’re the one who keeps the flame lit.
You know how to lead, even when the map disappears, or feels crumpled in your pocket.

This letter is for you.

The Currents Underneath

Lately I’ve felt a quiet, and sometimes excruciatingly loud tug.
A shifting beneath the surface of the sea.
Sometimes chaotic, but always purposeful. A deeper rearrangement, guiding my life toward where it’s meant to go.

The river inside me is choosing a new direction.
And sometimes, we cannot control the flow of the current.

I’ve learned to listen when that happens.
To pause before pushing, because pushing never works.
To speak from the marrow, not the mask.

So this isn’t a newsletter.
It’s a moment of return.
To myself.
To the unseen ones.
To you.

You Don’t Have to Perform Your Power

I’ve been thinking about what it means to grow in public,
especially as someone who began sharing her journey with chronic illness online over a decade ago.

I know I’m being called to use my voice in new ways.
That way of showing up doesn’t work anymore.
There’s a learning and a shifting. A remembering of how I can be visible, but not consumed.
Sovereign, but still soft.

There’s a story many of us were fed:
That in order to lead, we have to be always-on, ever-available, endlessly inspiring.

But I believe in another way.

A way where your silence is sacred.
Your discernment is power.
And your presence is enough.

You don’t need to overshare to be seen.
You don’t need to dilute your frequency to belong.
You don’t need to prove you’re healed to help others heal.
(Speaking to myself and to you here.)

Healing waters from my pilgrimage to Mt. Kurama, Japan. Filmed at the birthplace of Reiki.

The Season I’m In

Right now, I’m in a threshold space.
Closing chapters with love, and sometimes fire.
Calling in what’s next with care.

Some days I feel like a bridge.
Some days I feel like a storm.
But underneath it all, I feel trust.

I trust that the behind-the-scenes work is working.
Even when it’s invisible.
Especially then.

If You’re Holding a Lot Right Now…

Maybe you’re tending to grief that doesn’t have a name.
(I know I am.)

Maybe you’re building something that doesn’t fit any known blueprint.
(Yes, ma’am.)

Maybe your intuition is louder than your strategy right now,
(and that feels confusing.)

Maybe you’re craving simpler words, truer spaces, slower time. (Me too.)

This is not a space for performance.
This is a space for resonance.
You don’t have to translate your soul to be understood here.

A Channeled Transmission from My Guides

To the ones who feel the tides turning within them:

You are not behind.
You are not late.
You are in sacred timing.

The unraveling you feel is not regression. It is refinement.
The emptiness is not absence. It is invitation.

You are not meant to carry it all the way you used to.
Lay down the parts that were never yours to bear.
Not all thresholds require force. Some open with breath.

Let this be the season you let yourself be held,
not by systems, not by metrics, but by something ancient and wise.
By the intelligence that lives in your belly.
By the pulse of the Earth beneath your bare feet.
By the soul of the work that is choosing you again, and again.

You are here to go deep.

And we are with you.
In every silence. In every seeing. In every step.

— Guides of the Deep Remembering

What’s Coming

In the months ahead, I’ll share:

• What’s in my field — the energetic and emotional textures moving through this season
• Invitations — to gather, to pause, to remember what’s sacred, both IRL and in digital space
• Notes from the edge — on spiritual leadership, sacred business, intuition, and soul work

Some of it will be structured.
Some of it won’t.
All of it will be true (for me).

If You’re Feeling the Call…

If you’re a leader, guide, founder, or creative —
and you’re at a threshold moment of your own —
I invite you into Shepherd, my private, spirit-led advisory offering.

For those ready to lead with deeper integrity, attunement, and soul truth.

💌 Join the waitlist here
📥 Or reach out directly: hi@guidedbyshepherd.com

Thank you for being here.
Even in silence. Even from afar.
Your presence matters.

This is the field.
This is the temple.
And we are only just beginning.

With care — and the storm of an ocean in my belly,
Emily